What's with my awkward shyness?

it sounds like you have a low self esteem. you just need to talk to the people one-on-one first then go to a party. it will help if you know more people and what they're interested in. i'm always this way when i meet someone new. i feel awkward so i know what you feel. it just takes time. and not everybody judges on looks (your hair) it's the personality that counts :)